blissful yet feeling fear from within.
the care and love i do feel it.
from the bottom of the heart, i sincerely feel grateful.
i love being pampered and i know i am being well pampered still.
you made the smile possible again.

25th dec 2007
spent the xmas at home.
sleep my day through.
what a xmas!

nothing beats better than having the one by the side when the clock strike 12am.

behaving intimately right in front.
the painfulness.
no anger but only great disappointments.
effort and patience pacifying and assuring brings the pains away slowly.
RECONSIDER... it a banned word as of now.
Honour the words said on 24th dec.
never feel lousy or useless for you are not.
you will always have someone with you going through everything for you are special to the person.

series of smses with aiai.
finally i received aiai msg.
i am going to crack my head and think of something to make up for everything.

glad to see xueping and anthony recovering well.
merry christmas to all my dearest ..
the ytcc cliques ....
my 2 aiai ...
my ex chong ghee team mates ...
my dearest xiaoyuan ...

heartfelt xmas wishes for anthony and family....

SERENE aka darling - my shopping and chit chat party. simply just love her. may all her dreams come true!
WEIMING aka khakis - one who shared the same thinking as me. one whom i can confide in. sincerely hope things be going smoothly for my khakis.
ANTHONY LAU ... the head master. one person whom i respect.speedy recovery to both mr and mrs lau.
DARREN aka duckie... the bread lover as well. my benben family. best wishes to duckie n gf baobao.
KELVIN aka da benben ... forever disturbing but i still cherish this da benben of mine. may all wishes come true!
ZHIRONG.. the one who once hold the title,but had retired since he met jessica. sincere blessing and everlasting love.
JUNQING.. dont really hang out with us but i know he is one fun loving friend. everlasting love for him n gf jerlyn.
Lastly, TAN HENG YONG - disturbing at times but still the patience and tender care is truely appreciated. best wishes!

方文邦 - please dont get yourself so drunk again. thanks for being here all these while. may everything be going smoothly for you. best of luck for all matches for the upcoming year. merry merry xmas .....!!!

not forgetting my mr koh .. merry xmas...hohoho... where did you spend your xmas eve?

jolin babe, dont think too much. what is meant to be yours is yours. dont wanna see the moody you now, and please get well soon alright? hugs and loves.

saw shifa and people yesterday. i saw zhenzhi as well. i misses this girl hell lots man. still as pretty as ever.

hopefully a better new year eve .....

i wanna watch movie. it been hell long since i last watch movie.
any kind soul around to bring me out for movies? boo!!

merry xmas melvin tan wei yau ... practice session?

a long post with me uttering rubbish.. this is just how bored i am on xmas day.
the blog is getting boring without pictures.
time to start cam-whoring. wahaha

effort appreciated.
tender care and love recognised.
thanks!
i cant foresee what the route ahead be like.
all concern is your presence is there.

from my heart, i gave the blessing to my duckie and gf baobao.
i am so glad that my duckie had found his love.

i hope everything be going smoothly for khakis.
time will have everything resolved.
hang in there. anthony and family is around.

i wonder how is the converse cup going on.
i reckon that aiai is still unhappy with me. regardless of what, i still wish him luck and all the best for all matches. it been hell long since i last watched aiai play competitive bball.
wb injured his kneecap. old injury. please so have ample rest.
not forgetting my hao da dang. continue to shine on the court. i always believe you have what it takes.
my beloved xiaoyuan, katek and all.. i misses you girls. enjoy the game alright.

i am getting really tired.
no strength to go on.
the thought of walking away did crossed my mind.
the invisible pressure is making things even worse now.
can everything be just simple and not so complicated.
cant bear to just walk away like that but if things still goes on in this manner, i know walking away will be the best.
though i really cant bear to turn and walk away.
all i ask for is simplicity.

khakis know best what i am going through.

pictures were taken so long ago.
when was the last time i played basketball?
i missed playing bball with angelina teo aka my sister.
the photo taken with the lion look alike dog by tham when we went for bball session.
when was the last time i meet up with tham and spend time together?
i misses the good old days playing street ball.
alright,i am just plain lazy for bball session now.
i was browsing through the old pictures and i saw all these pictures which i am in bball attire.
memories indeed. i no longer able to run and shoot like how i used to.
i look slim in the pictures above. looking at the pictures made me realized how much weight i had gained. -sinful-
my hair was still kind of short back then. haa!
talking about basketball,this coming 20th dec 2007, the annual gathering for nbss bballers. the annual xmas celebration. a get together session. as usual i am looking forward to it. it been so long since i last meet up with all my ex team mates in nbss. they are the ones whom went through all the hell kind of training with me, sharing all the victories and tears. everything is still so vividly in my mind though it had been years ago.

great friends made cause of bball.
great and wonderful memories cause of bball.

though i no longer play like how i used to be, i still love this game.


audz.

i am glad that khakis had chosen what he wanted. the smile is slowly back on his face again. -once khakis..always khakis..-

the irregular meals and sleeping hours is draining me out slowly. the excess kilos which i had gained simply a turned off whenever i look myself into the mirror. it is really time to tune back my Bio clock and eating my meals on time. it is time to be good girl.

i am tired and had enough of it. I AM MOVING AWAY. i tried and done what i could. i reckon that there arent anymore i could do. perhaps once again history is repeating. the only time you behaving in such a manner is when someone step in. hence i concluded that it is more or less the same now. i might be wrong as well, but whatever it is. i am just gotta move away. TC!

audz promise to meet up with mr koh pretty soon as my dearest mr koh is complaining that when was the last time i see ms teo hur? .. haha

the converse cup is starting in another few days time. goodluck to all players participating.
it the first official competitive match you be involved after resting for so long. best of luck!
if i am not wrong, aiai will be playing thus of cause i hope aiai be in his form to deliver what he is capable of.

i reckon i saw your footsteps. together with your footsteps, you bring laughers and joys to my life. -smile-

someone sleeping soundly and here someone is killing the time surfing the net. done a few personality test. duckie commented that i am plain lazy which is why i am actually posting all this. haa...
i am so glad that my khakis had more or less had a clearer picture of what he want. slowly i see the smile on my khakis face.
read duckie blog just now, reckon that my dear duckie is facing some problems as well. duckie have ben ben there for you alright;listening ear always ready.

the pain is so unbearable that anthony got no choice but to go to the hospital again. the wound had been infected. maggots was found still alive when bandage was taken out yesterday. i can really feel the pain. *praying for their speedy recovery*

i missed playing basketball. i seriously do.

khakis agreed that singlehood rocks! perhaps at times cause it is a fact which no one can deny that all humans need love and attention at times.

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seeing xueping like that definitely hurts. though i am not the one in pain but i reckon that i do feel the pain. speedy recovery!

been neglecting my loves one around me. i hate myself for doing so.

i am glad i still have tham around.

sorry mr koh.

wb been busy having training as matches are just round the corner. JIAYOU!

melancholy is the word to best describe me now. say no more. actions speaks louder.

perhaps i am just not gracious enough.perhaps i just not magnanimous enough. perhaps..perhaps.. and it just goes on. i reckon i am really ambivalent this time round when i know i am not supposed to.all required is only someone to allay the doubts i am having .what's so difficult about it.

i am praying everything to be going smoothly for my khakis be it in what.

it is inevitable when feeling is involved. there bound to be a someone getting hurt. life is all about happiness and sadness. one can never taste happiness if he/she had never had a taste of sadness.this is just the reality. taking things in strike is what others tend to say to another when things happened. once again, how many can actually put it into actions? the greatest enemy is ourself which is why human tend to be indecisive, and it is always the indecisiveness that cause the cuts to get deeper.be it what, time heal all wounds. packed up the memories and dry up the tears now and look forward to a better tomorrow.

i seriously dont know what am i talking about, and please i am not refering to anyone . i am just simply typing whatever flashes through my mind.


really tired,
audz

you proven everything to be the opposite.
i had enough.
a stop shall be put to it.
i am really tired to go on.
perhaps i am just not game enough.

never give any promises when you arent able to fulfill it.

I AM OUT!

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the explaination above really speaks the character of audrey? WHATEVER!

seeing you troubled yet there is nothing i can do. the feeling simply sucky.
tell me what could be done on my end in order to put on the smile on your face again.

egg tarts, all thanks to my dearest mr koh. hugs....

haven been hearing from you for a couple of days, wonder how have you been? i hope i know what is going on. be it what, do take great care. you know this is refering to YOU.

it time to get a job to keep me occupied.

my duckie is injured for he met with an accident. thank god that he is not going at a very fast speed. praying for the speedy recovery for my dearest duckie.
i just dont understand why guys care more for their bike than themself. duckie is being thrown out of his bike, yet all he care is still the condition of his bike. this is ridiculous isnt it?

i love my khakis always for he really understand me. thank you khakis.
darlg had been feeling rather moody recently. haix.. please cheer up hao ma. it is pain to see you like that.

i misses the pampered life. i misses the carefree life. i misses the good old days with all my bubbly team mates. i misses tan baobei. i misses gf, boi, dear, aiai, buddy and all the ytcc cliques.i seriously miss my KA family. of cause i miss my beloved sister liu huizhen. my KCS school mates.

nbss bball gathering next monday. wonder how is everyone. it been really long since everyone last meet up. haa.. a bballing session? woohoo... somehow it remind me of those tough hell training days.tears never failed to filled whenever i think back the days back then. we shared the victories and loses as one. encouraging one another, never gave up on anyone. all these shall live in my heart forever.