i am not contactable recently as mama had changed a new sim card for me.
evenso, i kinda enjoy the life whereby i am disconnected from the world. i dont know why, but somehow i just like the feeling of it.

watched BODY19. not bad!
one very important point to learn from the show; never have flings.

alright maybe i just hate mens who flirt and women who allowed and throw themself to those men knowing that they are married or attached.

melvin tan, wonder have u come to a decision? i sincerely hope you will give yourself a chance to take the first step out. chances dont always come! just believe that you can do it for i strongly believe in you. GO FOR IT ...

i wish to say this aloud... thank you anthony and family.

the short meeting up with roy actually bring back many past memories and happy moments which i had with the group. you guys are never forgotten. perhaps time is what needed for me. you are people who were by me during my darkest moments of life. needless to say, I LOVE YOU guys still.
*feeling damn guilty*

- it is not a game , hence quit the role as a player -

before i continue with my post, i hereby would like to say SORRY to khakis lee weiming, darling serene tan and anthony my mr lau.
the laughers and all will never be forgotten for i love you people.



things will keep on repeating if the root of it remain.
i really wonder why sucha person actually exist.
perhap shameless is not within the knowledge of the person.
pardon me for being harsh with my words this time round.
i am seriously very tired with things repeating.

aggressive
wearing a mask
pathetic act
doing little actions
tears for sympathy
simply just despised such a kind of person.
feeling guilty with the above mention? yes .. i am refering to YOU.

My life would be beautiful if you were by my side because you have painted a smile in my heart that will last for a lifetime.
22nd is the number.


- adjusting back to the life -

feeling guilty for i have been neglecting people around me, especially those really nice people in my life. just what am i doing?

smile will find its way back when things are going back to the right track. keep the promises you made. never allow the history to repeat for it will be too high a price you need to pay. moments of joy nearly caused you to lose everything. thankful that ming is magnanimous enough. truely thanks ming for fulfilling his words. HY, please make this the last time like what you had promise. lies were told but the thought of you having to bear the consequences for the moments of joy, no anger were filled but only worries.

i seriously hope that tan will take up the offer and go for the performance for i reckon that it is a great opportunity for him to take the step out. though the stress level will be so much more but i do have confident that he will make it. 你是最棒的！ smilessss....

glad to know that duckie and dearest baobao had patch things up.
glad to know that smile is on the way back on khakis face .. (as usual i just want khakis to be happy with whatever decision he is making.) you always have my support ...

dear jolin, please learn to take care of yourself more. you nearly scared the wit out of everyone. everyone is worried for you. you can come to us should you need someone to talk to. dont swallow everything alone. always remember that i am here my babe.

i misses those characters in my life.. i seriously do.
i want to play bball again.
i want to shed off the excess kilos.
i want to look nice during CNY.
i want to be smiling all day long.
i want everyone around me to be blissed and smiling.
i want...

i am tired... shall blog again when i have the mood again.

khakis lee weiming
duckie darren
darling serene tan
i just wanted to say THANK you.

facing it with the positive attitude yet praying for the best and prepared for the worst.

can love be shared?
i supposed no one love to share the one he/she love with another person.
hence never ever mention love if you arent certain.
decisive and firm is what needed.

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y K A L A I ...

i missed the bballing session.
i realised that i had yet to played bball together with him before.
this upcoming sat shall make it the first time.
it been hell long since i played bball,hopefully i dont make a fool of myself then.
'RAINBOW', the people sure to have go 'WAH'. this just speaks for itself the ability in him.

regardless of how unreasonable i can be, everything will still be resolved.
i need not spelled out how great you had been.
i reckon that no amount of words could surpassed the little actions showed at times.
there bound to be doubts but trust me, it is really getting better as time passes.

serene darling of mine came up with this sentence the moment she saw me online this morning.
'finally i see you online and at home'
boo! what a unique way to start the conversation darling. LOL!
i cant help laughing for i know what she meant.

read ferlyn blog this morning. this lil tiny girl had finally make the final call. she decided to give up and walked away once and for all. i know it is not easy for her to make this move as she got to struggle with her own feelings. you are strong, am i right? time will be the best antidote for both khakis and ferlyn. at times life is just so cruel. both party who loves each other yet due to some reasons, it is just not possible to continue the story thus GOODBYE turn out to be the last alternative.

mr lok ROM date had been finalised. the smile of blissed from the couple simply make everyone envy.

my duckie had been working and working thus i reckon that i haven really hang out with him for quite awhile. duckie presence is deeply missed.

it is really kind of weird with the disappearance of mr lau lately. i am sure khakis will agreed with me. i kind of misses mr lau voice. though laughter still goes on, however it just seem so incomplete without mr lau. i am so looking forward to the return of him.

i hope things had been getting better for my dearest jolin. life arent easy for you but i know you are handling it well so far. you had my blessing babe.

-i had tried what i could. you had shown and proven how chauvinistic you are.
drained out hence i am out for good.-

i am still cracking my brain of what to do so as to pacify my aiai.

the blog really need some pictures to make it lively. it is getting really dull for it is so wordy.

today is the 3rd i am at home.
the talk yesterday dont really goes well.
what was meant to be delivered was not being delivered as how it is supposed to be.
the conversation did not went really smoothly.
i do not know how to express myself thus off to bed.

the sick person made me kinda unhappy today.

i wanna go out.
someone bring me out can.
i want movie
i feel like playing bball suddenly.
i want to eat dessert made from durians.
someone buy me the tigger i wanted can.
..................

i am just too bored.

home the whole day. surfing the net and eating. beloved mama bought bananas home just when i am craving for it. *slurp*
dental appointment tomorrow. 2 interviews to attend. long and busy day tomorrow.
the whole house is in a mess yet i am so lazy to tidy. feeling so lethargic.
stupid lee wenhao for calling me a bimbo this afternoon just because i dont wanna go out. or rather just because i am going to take at least an hour to get myself ready.

it is the best time to be rebellious and naughty cause someone is so weak and sick now. LOL! the person is of cause none other than the sickly personnel tan.
to agitate him had somehow become part of my daily routine. ops!!
i am doing it out of goodwill can. HAAs!!

bang flight will touch down at 10pm today. be blessed with a safe and smooth journey back.

had a chat with babe jolin this noon. alright babe, everything will be over soon. all pains and sorrows will taken away as time passes. 2008 will definitely be a better year. just do bear in mind that you can always call me should you need someone to talk to. dont do silly things or suffer i silence alone.

my darling aka serene is kind of blissfully enjoying the sweetest of love. at the same time also struggling in that. kind of contradicting and complicated. darling, so long as you know you done your part, that's enough. for now, just enjoy the feeling of being pampered.

congrats to mr lau.. mr lau mama had successfully gave birth to a baby boy.mr lau younger brother and anson little uncle. i cant help feeling happy for them when darling told me that the baby boy is born.

coming sat will be the big day for my dearest beloved kalai. feeling so excited when i received her sms informing that she be celebrating her bdae. BBQ session. the meet up with the KA family of mine.

the sight of khakis and ferlyn, the blissful smile is clearly seen on khakis face. needless to say, one look and you will know that ferlyn is the love of khakis. but khakis...dont ever come up with those stupid white lies which kill urself so stupidly. ferlyn will agree with what i say. am i right feryln? wahaha...

blogging is getting really bored with just words. duckie will agree with me that it is time for cam-whoring. if not our blog gotta get so bored and dull.

*time to shed off some kilos.. chinese new year coming*

goodbye year 2007. whatever unhappy event which had taken place in year 2007 will be taken away once and for all.
no more tears and pains. year 2008 will be a better year.
the sweetest way to welcome year 2008 is to with someone special watching fireworks and telling him/her happy new year. isnt that sweet and blissful?
welcoming of year 2008 in a rather simple manner but i am contended.